It’s been three months since I last blogged here. My last post was actually about my blog’s 4th birthday, so it was all fun and excitement, coupled with some flashbacks.
We’re currently in the Philippines, but it’s been hectic. Quite a roller coaster ride, actually.
We’re back to checking out more food places (and trust me, there are so many to check out!). I also planned my mom’s birthday party and discovered a super excellent baker in the process (thank you to Amanda’s Oven!). Unfortunately, immediately after a successful party, we had a medical emergency with our little dog that lasted for 12 days. Then he passed away. If you’re a pet owner, you’d understand how devastating it was for us. We’re a child-free couple, and our little one IS our little one. His passing isn’t something we could just shrug off and move on from.
For a brief time, I hardly felt like eating. Just the mere thought of eating made me want to barf. If you know me, that’s highly unusual. But yes, it did happen. Then I got sick, which was like a knock on my head to get my act together. So I had to put on my big girl pants and eat. Grief’s not a fun friend, but I understand that it’s a process we must go through and not something to be denied. Some days are good grief days when we remember him, then smile and laugh. Others are bad grief days full of what-ifs, regrets and self-blame. It’s pretty much a step forward and two steps back.
That’s why I’ve been silent on this blog.
I’ve got a lot of pending posts to write, and a lot of photographs to go through. But right now, I’m taking each day as it comes. Here are some of the food photographs I’ve taken so far. By the way, I’m currently more active on Instagram (@snaphappyfoodie), so if you just want to see food photos, that’s the way to go. Thanks for still checking out my blog despite the hiatus.
Beautiful photos as always, Cecelia.
Just remember that the grief process is just that, a process. Take each day as it comes and push through it the best that you can.
Sending hugs and love, and our thoughts and prayers.
XxOo
Bonnie
Thank you so much, Bonnie. I really appreciate.
You’re so right too. It’s a definitely a process, so it can’t be rushed.
I appreciate your candor and your ability to put into words your feelings on something as profound as death. Take as much time as you need to heal. Although you may find that writing is therapeutic.
Thanks so much, Pam. I’ve been writing about it in my other blog (somewhere out there) just to get things out of my head. You’re so right too – writing is therapeutic.
I remember what you told me before. Grief demands to be experienced.
It’s been 3 years and you still remember what I said? Yes, it’s still true. Grief demands to be experienced, not ignored. It has 5 stages — where are you at, right now?
Yes, I actually do remember it, Pam!
Grieving is a process. Take the time you need. Sending thoughts of healing and peace.
Thanks so much, Lynne.
I am so sorry for your loss! I was there three times over this past year, and it’s a horrible experience. The good thing is that it gets easier over time!
Thanks, Colleen.